Drabble because why not by vagabondthoughts, literature
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Drabble because why not
"freedom is a length of rope.
god wants you to hang yourself with it."
some jackass gave me freedom today instead
of giving me happiness, cue me loose from
all things holy and gave me this anarchy
in my head
somebody decided agency was a good idea and
love was something human should govern
an angel sat on my shoulder for a day
and told me about freedom, what it really is
he thought he was the new god and things were
fine, for a while, until they weren't
freedom is a length of rope, yes, or
a handful of pills you should swallow, or
somebody looking you in the eye and
calling you a liar
one day i asked him to rewire me and he did
and there was a key that opened up my ribcage like some safe
like it’s worth protecting what’s in there
and he cut open nerve centers and peered inside with his microscope eyes and
he fixed me, replaced lines of nerve cells with copper wiring and didn’t realize nerves are made in the synapses, in the spaces between the cells
he rewired me and left no spaces in my head and
i didn’t feel real anymore
but i still wanna be here by vagabondthoughts, literature
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but i still wanna be here
this is a good moment, the kind i can feel like an embrace, the kind that wraps itself around me like a summer breeze, a bit of warmth to change the cold and a bit of daydreaming to change my mind
i can’t change my mind anymore but you can so i want you to tell it to me like you’re honest to the core of yourself, like when god made you he taught you kindness even when you’re vulnerable, like he wove sunlight in your soul so you could shine.
“do you wanna be something besides
this?”
boy with water song inside by vagabondthoughts, literature
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boy with water song inside
boy with water song inside
1 – boy with water song
water underground
the sound of it buzzing in the base of my skull
i think when this drought ends in rain
it will also end in hope because
there’s a certain type of pessimism that comes with death
2 – brother
links of chain connect like misfiring synapses
i whisper sometimes through the gaps in the wall and i wonder if
he’s there
when it gets too unbearable in the sun sometimes they give me a drink of water but
there’s never enough shade anymore
3
the desert stretches out under the water song like a vast body
bu
Home is just Another Word for You by vagabondthoughts, literature
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Home is just Another Word for You
Home is just another word for you
the space of your fingers and
your ribs and your breath
and the way your tongue wraps around words like an embrace
a gentle brush of lips against skin and rough
exposed raw nerves, misfiring synapses
what i really want is to fold myself into your arms and
forget everything that ever felt like broken glass
forget picking shards out of my palms and
cursing myself for my recklessness
what i really need is to lie down for a while and think
commit every pain to memory so i can stop making
the same stupid mistakes
Hello—
you didn’t get to tell me your name then because
you were pulled away in the crowd.
I kept wondering.
Hey, my name’s—
still no name, you won’t start the year on a bad note.
When the teacher starts talking about dendrites
you scrawl
Hey, sorry, I’m Johnny.
At this point we don’t know what will become of us yet, that you will leave and I will try to stop you the only way I know how.
I scrawl back.
>Rylee.
I’ve got theatre next, you?
>No, sorry. I’ve got tech mods.
What even is that?
>No idea. Everything else was full.
Oh, that sucks.
My synapses are firing madly, my mind aw
In the dream I’m sitting in the meadow on a blanket. I’m looking up at the sky. I’m wearing a comfortable tailored blue dress and I stand, spinning.
It’s almost like I’m going to take flight until I stop, realizing suddenly that I am not alone.
There’s someone else here.
At the edge of the meadow, he’s silhouetted by the sun. It’s setting, and he’s beautiful. I stop and feel a shiver trace its finger down my spine. This moment is suspended in time. This moment is glass. I want this moment to shatter.
The world pulses back into motion again. I am lifting off the ground and I feel like there
I think I would like to write myself into the periodic table,
slip myself between copper and cadmium, a barely-there perception.
This way, when you glance through me I can
reinforce myself with the knowledge that I am surrounded by
the heart of a supernova
time will never end but
it will certainly forget me
it will never forget the girl who held on between cobalt and manganese
and prayed
my favorite thing about water is:
it’s never twice the same
I will never stand under the same rain twice or
feel the same river-water pulling me around or
cry the same tears, and to me
that is beautiful
I have live my life in search of perfect symmetry
but, retrospectively, I appreciate
asymmetry